Thursday, December 31, 2009

I'm Back!! Boy it's been a long time!!

Hello World!!

It has been a very long time since I last posted my thoughts. I really haven't had much to say I guess. (I still don't) ;-o
Here we are headed in to the year 2010.... it seems so science fiction like. The year 2010! Woe!
Interestingly enough, tonight (New Year's Eve) at 19:11 (7:11pm) GMT, we'll experience a "Blue Moon".
Then the next one will be in the year 2012 -August 31st at 13:56 (1:56pm GMT). I have read some interesting historic facts regarding this whole "Blue Moon" occurance.

Apparently there will not be another Blue moon on New Year's Eve for another 19 years. Disk Jockies on the radio this morning were saying that the term "Blue Moon" came from the fact that a 2nd full moon only occurs every 19 years on New Year's Eve however according to NASA's website, The term "Blue Moon" is given to the 2nd full moon in a calendar month. That a full moon only occurs every 29.5 days which means there will never be a ful moon in February.
They go on to say that the term Blue Moon ... aka Once in a blue moon, means a rare occurance however 2 full moons in a calendar month are not that rare at all. Apparently they occur every 2.5 years. Huh!! Who would have guessed?!

NASA also states that the term Blue Moon originated in 1883 when Krakatau (a small volcanic island in Indonesia) where the volcano erupted such a huge amount of volcanic dust, the moon actually had a blue color to it. (Which had nothing to do with the full moon). This volcanic dust - that caused the moon to appear blue was such a rare, unusual occurance... perhaps only a one time occurance... the phrase "One in a Blue Moon" came to light.

Apparently somewhere down the road of time, it got misinterpreted by reporters or something like that.

Why am I sharing this info? Well... I don't really know. It was on my mind when I started to type. If I of all people found it interesting... someone else out there may too!!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

July 12, 2009

Well, It is finally a sunny day. We have had so much rain this year... I have not had to water my garden. My veggie plants are strong and healthy. They're sure to bring us some nice juicy vegetables.
Yesterday we sold 7 cords of wood. The man wants even more so today we will be out back in the forest, cutting up tree's and splitting it. Due to the crashing economy, more and more people are resorting to woodstoves for heating. I can't say that I blame them as we'd have a woodstove too if we had room for one. I'm all for not having to buy heating kerosene every winter.
I have been fiddling around with Facebook.... however I have yet to understand the concept of it. Why don't people just email one another as opposed to short notes posted on a wall for the world to see. Perhaps I am just getting prematurely old. ;-0

My son Jeremy is doing well since arriving home from Canon City, Colorado on April 28th. He had been gone for nearly 7 years. I thank God every day for returning him home to me. It feels like 600lbs has been lifted off my shoulders. I worried about him out there with no family to turn to. Plus of course I missed him. Amazingly enough, he landed a decent job by the 3rd week of being home. The pay isn't the best but they have excellent benefits and it is super close by.
He says that once he saves enough money, he'll be buying himself another vehicle so he can get around on his own.

I've been on clindamycin antibiotics for a nasty tooth root abscess that has been paining me for 7 days now. I believe the clindamycin is the cause to some very vivid... realistic dreams where I am trying to save Jeremy & Jennifer from harm... like last night I dreamt that Billie Fucillo the autodealer here in NY was a mobster and he was killing off kids because he hates little people. I begged him to kill me instead... to please allow my children to live. It was a horrid dream. This is like the 4th dream I have had this week... trying to save my 2 children. The weird thing is... Jennifer passed away back in 1991 from an inoperable brain stem tumor. I couldn't prevent her from that yet alone stop the tumor from killing her. Perhaps I carry a deep seeded guilt within for not being able to protect her from that. I don't know.

Well, I am needed outside now to help stack wood. Bye!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Life in General....

I'm in one of those moods today.... wondering what my purpose in life is or if I even have one.  It's as if I live to work... to barely make ends meet... struggle from pay check to pay check.  You know... live to work & work to live. 
I can't help but worry about all those people without jobs and those in poverish nations. How will they ever survive this crashing economy?! I have a good job and it is a struggle.  Who will help those in need? Most of us have nothing left to give. I actually have to fight back the tears of empathy and fear. Depression seems to fill my inner being as I am in no position to help anyone in need as I can barely keep my own head above water. What worries me most is... nobody seems to be worried about those less fortunate. The government seems to be taking care of only the big financial guru's, not us lower to middle class working people. They are making more loans available to us but more debt is the last thing any of us need. WE need the bailouts... not AIG, Wallstreet or the auto industry. The environment would be much better off with less vehicles polluting it. 

Sorry for my negativity today. I am usually upbeat & bubbly but this economy really has me down. It hurts me to see friends and loved ones bottom out and I am unable to help them. It is my nurturing nature to want to help people in need. Perhaps too, I emotionally need to repay society for all the love and prayers sent to me and my family during our very trying time, during my daughter Jennifer's illness and untimely death.  I don't really know what it is that makes me feel compassion towards others and the less fortunate, poverish people who are forgotten or ignored. I just know how stressful it feels when I don't have enough money to make a bill payment on time.... or how embarrassed it feels to have to roll change to put gas in my vehicle.... it is extremely depressing to the point of withdrawal. I can see why the suicide rate has spiked so high. It is as if there is no light at the end of the tunnel. 

The bright side of this all is.... THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!  We just haven't gotten close enough to see it!!  Things will get very dark for awhile but eventually we WILL be guided back in to the light.   The Great Depression started in October of 1929 with the crash of the stock markets. Soon to follow was the economic downfall which started in the USA then soon rippled throughout the world. The great depression lasted from 1929 through the last 1930's and even in to 1940 in some parts of the world. Gas and food were rationed. Industries came to a screaching halt.  It was a devastating time. 

Are we headed for this again?!  Are we prepared if it does? Can Americans even survive such a crisis after having relied on such high tech modern luxuries as cell phones, high speed internet, blue tooth technology, Satellite systems, hybrid cars and so many others? That would be like asking a NY City resident to survive on the land in the middle of nowhere without access to civilization. Hmmmm.  Food for thought.